Monday, March 2, 2009

Today.

Today it has been hard. Today I struggled with Life. Today I questioned. Today I wondered about the sovereignty of His hand in my life. Today I felt very alone. Today I wished. Today I felt alot of things. Today my heart wanted to know the truth. Today.....

today my God is a comsuming fire(Heb 12:29) even though at times I question the refining....

today my God is a the substance of things hoped for (Heb 11:1) even though my heart hasn't always sought Him....

today my God heals my heart (Ps 139) knowing the scars are a reminder of how merciful He is....

today my God is sitting upon the throne (Rev 7:10) and I seek Him there with the cries of my heart....

today my God is the reason of the hope within me (1Peter 3:15) knowing that without Him I could never go another day....

today my God is the strength of my heart (Ps 27:14,31:24) even though it is seemingly so easy to find satisfaction in my fleshly desires....

today my God is is working in me both to will and do His good pleasure (Phil 2:13) knowing that the 'song' of my life is being written by my Abba father....

today my God is the evidence of things not see. (Heb 11:2) feeling His presence when everything and everyone is so far away....

today my God hears me (Ps 21:2) cherishing the fact that my voice is what He desires to hear....

today my God is the fullness to my joy (ps 16:11) even though at times weeping endures for a night but knowing that with Him, joy WILL come in the morning....

today my God is the protection from the battle (Eph 6:) knowing that I fight but choosing to win, cause I can't afford to lose....

today my God is my reward (Gal 6:9) the only person that I want to hear say 'well done, good and faithful servant....'

today my God has called me His own (Is 43) cherishing that I am His daughter and knowing that nothing can seperate me from His love....

today my God is the grace sufficient for me (2 Cor 12:9, 9:8) that I may feel like a failure at times but realizing that nothing is impossible with my Saviour....

today my God is my way of escape (1Cor 10 :13) when all else fails and I can't go one, He is there.....

today my God is the song that I sing (Is 12:2) the foundation of my life...the music that resounds louder than any other tune, the one I listen for....

today my God is the standard for me (Acts 5:29) when I have tried my own way and the hurt overwhelms, He and His truth remains faithful....

today my God is holding my hand (Is 48:6) the footprints in the sand....

today my God is the strength in my life that is perfect (2Cor 12:9) when I have made mistakes and when I stumble, I rise again under the shadow of the Almighty....

today my God is the perfect peace that sustains me (Is 26:3-4) when I feel a storm raging in my heart and the tears flood, He lets me know that it will be okay....

today my God ths heritage I call my own that will last forever. (Is 54:17) I am forever and always a treasured child of the King, even when I feel exactly the opposite, I know He will always be my Jesus, my saviour, my daddy....

today my God is the finish line (Heb 12:1-2) I press on because of Him, I run this race of life for Him, and I do it because.... I love Him.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Would you love Him more?

I desire to be a woman of influence and I would desire that it draw others to God. I want to be passionate for Him and to pass that passion on to others. I am vividly reminded daily of the great joy or the intense pain it can reap in the lives of those that come into contact with mine....I am resolved that as I am influenced by others and as they are influenced by me, that when we look back we can see the fingerprints of God marking a closer walk with Him. Yes, this is my hearts cry.

I feel quite sure if I did my best
I could maybe impress you
With tender words and a harmony
A clever rhyme or two
But if all I've done in the time we've shared
Is turn your eyes on me
Then I've failed at what I've been called to do
There's someone else I want you to see

[CHORUS]
Will you love Jesus more
When we go our different ways
When this moment is a memory
Will you remember His face
Will you look back and realize
You sensed His love more than you did before
I'd pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

I'd like to keep these memories
In frames of gold and silver
And reminisce a year from now
About the smiles we've shared
But above all else I hope you will come
To know the Father's love
When you see the Lord face to face
You'll hear Him say "well done"

I'd pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more <3

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

From the ages past - to eternity come.....

I want to hear the voice of God.


thunders through the sky (EL-ELYON...The Lord Most High)

roars through the waves (EL-ROI...The strong one who sees)

whispers through the wind (JEHOVAH-MACCADDESHEM...The Lord my sanctifier)

crys in the rain (JEHOVAH-RAPHA...The Lord my healer)

shouts through the earth (EL-OLAM...The everlasting God)

speaks in the fire (JEHOVAH-SHAMMAH...The Lord who is present)

echos in the depths (EL-ROI...The strong one who sees)

and sings through the night (JEHOVAH-SHALOM...The Lord my peace)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

{sunglasses...laughs...and...starbucks...}



So...I just spent seven hours with the most amazing girls ever! The fellowship was sweet and fun to say the least :) We went shopping (of course) and thoroughly looked through every clearance rack and then some...but were quite chilled as we were at an outdoor mall and the tempature was dropping rapidly...but the cheerful trio pursued on :D I am so grateful for these precious girls and sisters in Christ, they indeed are a blessing from the Lord. What would a girls night out be without many laughs and giggles? Well, be assured that we had our share and the memories are uinforgettable! It was a great day and I am contented to say that it was exactly as I would have hoped :)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

God? I need you.

The words danced around on my tongue again, knocking against my teeth, trying to escape. But again, they were locked inside. Frustrated, they turned to wage war against my mind. This was nothing new…it was slowly becoming routine. As I drove home, questions ravaged my thoughts until finally, in the early hours of the morning, they came to the same answer they had the night before: now is not the time. Tears flooded my eyes as sadness began to creep in, leaving only one question: how long…? It was one I could not answer.

The next morning I awoke with my heart still in a fog. Throughout the day I tried to push the feelings aside, but little reminders waited around every corner, making it almost impossible to ignore them. I knew I couldn’t hold it in any longer, so I retreated to my bedroom as I fought back tears. Lord, why do I have to wait so long? Why can’t I know now? My heart was breaking as I buried my face in my hands and cried. It wasn’t supposed to be this hard.

Then I heard Him say....


My precious one. Have you realized that if you compiled every written word of love on this earth…it would fade greatly in comparison to the many series of books that the Lover of your soul has written about you? I have written your life to the tune of something beautiful. A song that no other ear has heard. A song that is being sung….only to you. Every note is falling in perfect harmony with my own composed melody. Have you heard it? The music is captivating. The notes are precise. The lyrics perfect. The melody unforgettable. Can you hear it?

Over time this amazing orchestration will resound with the tune of what I your Master composer call….your life. My heart’s cry for you my child is that you hear and know my written song for you, that you move to the rhythm of what I have destined you to be. Have you recognized my song that I have given you? Are you hearing it above every other competing melody that is falling upon your ear? I know that you have been distracted by the tune of other songs but take heed….it is not your own. There is a common thread that flows through every song that I have ever composed... And that would be the love in which I wrote it. My desire is that a beautiful orchestration would resound from the lives of those that I call my own. Listen, my child. The music has begun and it’s yours. The lyrics are yet to be completely written….it’s your time.


I have come to realize that the Lover of my soul has pursued me at times in the greatest of pursuit, to teach me awesome and new things and to grant me the desires of my heart. Also, sometimes in the greatest pain, at the knowledge that I have left Him and became consumed by things that were good, but not best. I know that He is what my heart needs…but not always what my heart wants. Time and time again I have crawled up into His lap and wept on His shoulder…feeling the pain of allowing my own song to sing words that He wrote, but to the wrong tune. As he gently wipes away the tears I feel His love compass my heart in a way I have never known. What love is this that heals, restores, and blesses? It is a love that knows no boundaries….a love that doesn’t fade…..a love that only He knows. Then He begins to sing. Wait? I have heard that somewhere before….haven’t I? Yes, it is the song that my life has thus far written. I can hardly believe it….it is more beautiful than I had ever imagined…..then it stops. My Lover looks me in the eyes and says ‘Go, my dear one. The rest has yet to be written. Do you think that the time spent in that key has caused a mistake? Know that I make everything new and the time spent there has only made your song stronger. Do not look back in shame…I know what lies behind you and it was all for a greater purpose. Know that. So go, and hear. Go and play out the notes that will make your song what I want it to be and remember….I love you.’

{‘Word of God speak’ by MercyMe}
I’m finding myself at a loss for words and the funny thing is… its okay. The last thing I need is to be heard… but to hear what you would say. Word of God speak. Would you pour down like rain and wash in my eyes to see…. your majesty. To be still and know…. that you’re in this place. Please let me stay and rest in…. your holiness. Word of God speak. I’m finding myself in the midst of you. Beyond the music…beyond the noise. All that I need is to be with you and in the quiet…..I hear your voice. . Word of God speak. Would you pour down like rain and wash in my eyes to see…. your majesty. To be still and know…. that you’re in this place. Please let me stay and rest in your holiness. Word of God speak.

Monday, February 16, 2009


Diane and Chrissy, the girls I am proud to call my own. Your baby sister misses you.

Her name is Fred...

There is this girl that was born 13 months before me. Brown eyed and kinda shy, but spunky, she was God's blessing to me. As time has gone on we have gone from playmate to confidante, from relation to friend. She makes me laugh and smile like no one else can. She has a relationship with her heavenly Father that has made her into a woman after His heart. She walks with me down this road of life even though many miles seperate us. She encourages me to settle for best above good. She has a passion to pursue God's call on her life. Yes, human she may be, but the power of God has 'been her strength in her weakness' and it has made her into the woman of God she is today. She has been an inspiration to me and I will always cherish those memories. She is...my sister. <3 I love you, Fred. (Hehe! We even have nickames for each other...yep, you will never believe what she calls me! I'm George. It's true. It's just another one of those 'sister things' :)

Friday, January 9, 2009

I'm back ;)

Wow! I can't believe that it has been such a long while since I updated this! Well, I no longer have a Facebook and life is still as busy as ever but my motto is 'You have time for what you make time for.' Kinda simple...but the key to the existence (or lack thereof) of many things in people's lives. All that to say that I am going to keep this updated and I have new posts to share about the amazing work of God in this girls life. Stay tuned for more :P

'In the presence of your King....

....bow the knee.'

'There are moments on our journey following the Lord, when God illumines every step we take. There are times when circumstances make perect sense to us, as we try to understand each move He makes. When the path grows dim and our questions have no answers to turn to Him.

Bow the knee. Trust the heart of your Father, when the answer goes beyond what you can see. Bow the knee. Lift your eyes towards heaven and believe the one who holds eternity. When you don't understand the purpose of His plan, in the presence of your King, bow the knee.

I have been challenged very recently about trusting my Father's heart. As I was sitting on my bed tonight crying out to God for His mercy and grace on my life and on present circumstances I heard Him say to me...'Kyla? do you believe that your God is bigger than the pain you are feeling right now? Not the God you learned about in sunday school but the God that has shown Himself faithful time and time again, the God that holds the very heart that is hurting?' I was quiet. There is nothing wrong with sunday school or the stories that made a big God become very real to a very small mind but I have grown in my spiritaul walk since then and if my view of God was still as it was then....my vision of the potential of that same God, would be very small. As I thought over the question I heard the Holy Spirit say to me I had no choice but to examine myself. Were my eyes lifted towards the only place that I could find peace? Or was the circumstance clouding my view?


There are days when clouds surround us and the cold and lonely winds won't cease to blow. Even though there is reason for the suffering wefeel, we are tempted to believe that God does not know. When the storms arise, don't forget we live by faith and not by sight.

Bow the knee. Trust the heart of your Father, when the answer goes beyond what you can see. Bow the knee. Lift your eyes towards heaven and believe the one who holds eternity. In the presence of your King, bow the knee.


Don't forget we live by faith and not by sight.' What a cliche verse but what a process to live out. I am resigned to believe that God DOES know. My heart is resigned to the truthfulness of past circumstances that prove Him above and beyond worthy of that fact. I WILL trust my father's heart...He sees beyind what I can....He makes a way where there seems no way....He works in ways I cannot see....With love and strength for each knew day..He WILL make a way.

In the presence of my King. I bow my knee.