Friday, February 27, 2009

Would you love Him more?

I desire to be a woman of influence and I would desire that it draw others to God. I want to be passionate for Him and to pass that passion on to others. I am vividly reminded daily of the great joy or the intense pain it can reap in the lives of those that come into contact with mine....I am resolved that as I am influenced by others and as they are influenced by me, that when we look back we can see the fingerprints of God marking a closer walk with Him. Yes, this is my hearts cry.

I feel quite sure if I did my best
I could maybe impress you
With tender words and a harmony
A clever rhyme or two
But if all I've done in the time we've shared
Is turn your eyes on me
Then I've failed at what I've been called to do
There's someone else I want you to see

[CHORUS]
Will you love Jesus more
When we go our different ways
When this moment is a memory
Will you remember His face
Will you look back and realize
You sensed His love more than you did before
I'd pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more

I'd like to keep these memories
In frames of gold and silver
And reminisce a year from now
About the smiles we've shared
But above all else I hope you will come
To know the Father's love
When you see the Lord face to face
You'll hear Him say "well done"

I'd pray for nothing less
Than for you to love Jesus more <3

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

From the ages past - to eternity come.....

I want to hear the voice of God.


thunders through the sky (EL-ELYON...The Lord Most High)

roars through the waves (EL-ROI...The strong one who sees)

whispers through the wind (JEHOVAH-MACCADDESHEM...The Lord my sanctifier)

crys in the rain (JEHOVAH-RAPHA...The Lord my healer)

shouts through the earth (EL-OLAM...The everlasting God)

speaks in the fire (JEHOVAH-SHAMMAH...The Lord who is present)

echos in the depths (EL-ROI...The strong one who sees)

and sings through the night (JEHOVAH-SHALOM...The Lord my peace)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

{sunglasses...laughs...and...starbucks...}



So...I just spent seven hours with the most amazing girls ever! The fellowship was sweet and fun to say the least :) We went shopping (of course) and thoroughly looked through every clearance rack and then some...but were quite chilled as we were at an outdoor mall and the tempature was dropping rapidly...but the cheerful trio pursued on :D I am so grateful for these precious girls and sisters in Christ, they indeed are a blessing from the Lord. What would a girls night out be without many laughs and giggles? Well, be assured that we had our share and the memories are uinforgettable! It was a great day and I am contented to say that it was exactly as I would have hoped :)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

God? I need you.

The words danced around on my tongue again, knocking against my teeth, trying to escape. But again, they were locked inside. Frustrated, they turned to wage war against my mind. This was nothing new…it was slowly becoming routine. As I drove home, questions ravaged my thoughts until finally, in the early hours of the morning, they came to the same answer they had the night before: now is not the time. Tears flooded my eyes as sadness began to creep in, leaving only one question: how long…? It was one I could not answer.

The next morning I awoke with my heart still in a fog. Throughout the day I tried to push the feelings aside, but little reminders waited around every corner, making it almost impossible to ignore them. I knew I couldn’t hold it in any longer, so I retreated to my bedroom as I fought back tears. Lord, why do I have to wait so long? Why can’t I know now? My heart was breaking as I buried my face in my hands and cried. It wasn’t supposed to be this hard.

Then I heard Him say....


My precious one. Have you realized that if you compiled every written word of love on this earth…it would fade greatly in comparison to the many series of books that the Lover of your soul has written about you? I have written your life to the tune of something beautiful. A song that no other ear has heard. A song that is being sung….only to you. Every note is falling in perfect harmony with my own composed melody. Have you heard it? The music is captivating. The notes are precise. The lyrics perfect. The melody unforgettable. Can you hear it?

Over time this amazing orchestration will resound with the tune of what I your Master composer call….your life. My heart’s cry for you my child is that you hear and know my written song for you, that you move to the rhythm of what I have destined you to be. Have you recognized my song that I have given you? Are you hearing it above every other competing melody that is falling upon your ear? I know that you have been distracted by the tune of other songs but take heed….it is not your own. There is a common thread that flows through every song that I have ever composed... And that would be the love in which I wrote it. My desire is that a beautiful orchestration would resound from the lives of those that I call my own. Listen, my child. The music has begun and it’s yours. The lyrics are yet to be completely written….it’s your time.


I have come to realize that the Lover of my soul has pursued me at times in the greatest of pursuit, to teach me awesome and new things and to grant me the desires of my heart. Also, sometimes in the greatest pain, at the knowledge that I have left Him and became consumed by things that were good, but not best. I know that He is what my heart needs…but not always what my heart wants. Time and time again I have crawled up into His lap and wept on His shoulder…feeling the pain of allowing my own song to sing words that He wrote, but to the wrong tune. As he gently wipes away the tears I feel His love compass my heart in a way I have never known. What love is this that heals, restores, and blesses? It is a love that knows no boundaries….a love that doesn’t fade…..a love that only He knows. Then He begins to sing. Wait? I have heard that somewhere before….haven’t I? Yes, it is the song that my life has thus far written. I can hardly believe it….it is more beautiful than I had ever imagined…..then it stops. My Lover looks me in the eyes and says ‘Go, my dear one. The rest has yet to be written. Do you think that the time spent in that key has caused a mistake? Know that I make everything new and the time spent there has only made your song stronger. Do not look back in shame…I know what lies behind you and it was all for a greater purpose. Know that. So go, and hear. Go and play out the notes that will make your song what I want it to be and remember….I love you.’

{‘Word of God speak’ by MercyMe}
I’m finding myself at a loss for words and the funny thing is… its okay. The last thing I need is to be heard… but to hear what you would say. Word of God speak. Would you pour down like rain and wash in my eyes to see…. your majesty. To be still and know…. that you’re in this place. Please let me stay and rest in…. your holiness. Word of God speak. I’m finding myself in the midst of you. Beyond the music…beyond the noise. All that I need is to be with you and in the quiet…..I hear your voice. . Word of God speak. Would you pour down like rain and wash in my eyes to see…. your majesty. To be still and know…. that you’re in this place. Please let me stay and rest in your holiness. Word of God speak.

Monday, February 16, 2009


Diane and Chrissy, the girls I am proud to call my own. Your baby sister misses you.

Her name is Fred...

There is this girl that was born 13 months before me. Brown eyed and kinda shy, but spunky, she was God's blessing to me. As time has gone on we have gone from playmate to confidante, from relation to friend. She makes me laugh and smile like no one else can. She has a relationship with her heavenly Father that has made her into a woman after His heart. She walks with me down this road of life even though many miles seperate us. She encourages me to settle for best above good. She has a passion to pursue God's call on her life. Yes, human she may be, but the power of God has 'been her strength in her weakness' and it has made her into the woman of God she is today. She has been an inspiration to me and I will always cherish those memories. She is...my sister. <3 I love you, Fred. (Hehe! We even have nickames for each other...yep, you will never believe what she calls me! I'm George. It's true. It's just another one of those 'sister things' :)